Happy Nude Years!

Hello lovely ladies! HAPPY NUDE YEARS! I know you are probably wondering why I said Nude instead of New, but you'll understand just keep reading. Now I know I said #COLORS wasn’t one of those self helping, life lesson offering, path to success leading blogs, but today I might pull out the soapbox. This post isn't featuring anyone this week because I want us all to be in the spotlight. In my *Olivia Pope Voice* 'Stand in the sun with me' ha-ha. No, but seriously ladies it's the New Year and we all know what that means. Time for everyone to bring out their favorite fiction of the bullshit book and reread their favorite chapter of "New Year, New Me”. Everyone spits this shit out every December 31st. It sticks for a few weeks maybe even a month, but then the next thing you know it's collected dust again until it's dragged out the next December 31st. While I understand it's the perfect time to bare it all and start fresh, but really if you feel the need to start over EVERY new year then maybe you should reevaluate your plan a little earlier in the year. Maybe try something new in March or August rather then wait for the year to play out so you can start over. I understand there is something a little poetic and motivational about starting fresh on day one, but really? You can't create your own day one? This year I have no resolutions, because I no longer believe in them. To me they don't make sense anymore. Why should I make a list of goals to accomplish and limit myself to them? I don't want to limit myself this year, I want to bare it all and go in giving it everything I've got. I'm not about to sit around worrying about checking things off from a piece of paper. I have been on this earth for 21 years and what I've learned is that once you set your mind to doing something you will do it. That's all good and fine, but what about the negative side of that? The issue that can come from going for a goal is that if you just focus on that one thing you could loose sight of other opportunities. You are setting a limit on yourself. You say you want to get to this point by the end of this year by any means necessary. GREAT. Now what? What happens when you get there? What happens if you get there before the year is out? Are you finished working for the rest of the year? What's next? Did you not think that far into the future? I don't believe that Jesus made me and put me here on this earth to do just one thing. I refuse to set myself to a limit, because limits only exist when you create them. I will not be put into a category or check a specific box because that's where I'm supposed to fit. News flash to anyone that may not know this, but no one on this earth fits. There is no one we are supposed to mimic. How am I supposed to fit in when I have no one to fit in with? I can't compare myself to the girl standing next to me because we aren't the same. Don't try to become someone else or use someone's success as a potential pathway. Trust me the Kim Kardashian method is not the way for everyone. I believe I was left here on this earth to accomplish much more then the categories society has created. I know you are probably reading this like this bitch is going on and on about going for goals but not limiting yourself, and she starting to contradict herself. How she gone tell I'm supposed to go for my goal, but not just accomplish my goal? I know it might seem a little confusing and don't get me wrong, yall going for your goals are marvelous, BUT don't forget about the journey. While you're looking at the end game you may miss the chance to do even more. You ever think that when you're focused on getting there you may miss the journey? The journey is the most important part. I'm going into the New Year with my eyes wide open to any and every opportunity that presents itself. Since I'm not doing resolutions and I didn't interview anyone I decided that I'm doing Confessions for the New Year. Confessions for me just seemed right it's a way for me to put it all out there, bare it all, be naked on a mental and emotional level. I invite you to try it. See you next week Ladies and HAPPY NUDE YEARS!

Photography By: Sugar Snaps Studios

Model: Susie Sugar

Confession 1: I'm shy.

You may not know it from the blogs and the pictures but I'm self-conscious about my body and my personality so I'm generally guarded. When I first meet people I'm quiet, which can be an issue when you have to meet new people and talk to them about working. However once I start to talk...good luck getting me to stop.

Confession 2: I have no idea what the hell I'm doing.

Like seriously, I don't know what I'm doing. A lot of people seem to think that I have it all together, but really I'm just as lost and confused as most girls my age. I’ve just accepted to take things one day at a time and hope for the best. I’m really walking on faith because I have no idea if anyone of this will work.

Confession 3: I am a hopeless romantic.

This is much of a confession because most people that know me are aware of that. However it can be one of my biggest flaws. When it comes to the one I Love I throw caution to the wind and sacrifice whatever it takes. I like most girls can't wait until I get married and have my big dress with the beautiful wedding and ride off into the sunset. Ahh, one day.

Confession 4: I a little bit crazy.

I know that seems contradictory since I said I was shy, but I am a little bipolar...and ADHD...and I have a bad attitude. Generally my attitudes only last 15 minutes, but believe me I can do a lot of damage in 15 minutes. It's pretty amazing.

Confession 5: My dreams terrify me.

I want to succeed, but sometimes I think maybe my dream is a little too big. I think that's more of the people I've allowed to get to me. It’s just nerve wracking because I know I want to make a difference in the world, I want to leave my mark I want to touch someone and inspire them to be great even against their circumstances.