Forever 21

21. The age most people dream of, at least it’s the birthday I was the most excited about. I imagined my life would be thrilling and exciting because I would be able to consume alcohol legally. At 21 I would have the most amazing friends, have the most wonderful boyfriend, be doing spectacular in school, I would have the most awesome life and everything figured out. Obviously I was dreaming a fairy tale because sitting here at 21, almost at 22, I can honestly say my life is nothing like I envisioned. Don’t get me wrong my life is pretty thrilling and exciting, but still it’s not the perfect life. On the road to 21 I’ve lost some of those amazing friends, that wonderful boyfriend is often times an asshole, and school has been up and down. While I haven’t gotten everything right about 21 the bonus is I do get to consume alcohol on a frequent basis. I’ve learned a lot living through these 21 years, but I know that there is a lot more for me to learn. This is just the beginning of a long journey, but sometimes it’s hard to believe that I’m just 21. I look at some of my friends from High School, Middle School, and even some from College and I wonder…AM I THE ONLY ONE CONFUSED??! Some of my peers seem completely happy and settled in life. They’re in school, doing great going on adventures around the world, working three jobs and being superheroes. Some are happily married, having babies and living the lifestyle of Real Housewives. Then there are some that are so drunk they don’t remember what city they parked their car. Looking around me it’s hard to believe we all started at the same place. It’s so many different paths that we can travel and options that we can chose that I can’t help but question am I doing it right? This week my interview never happened and it really made me think about the choices we have. It reminded me of has spontaneous and how inconsistent life can truly be. I reminisced on how you can’t plan everything because it’s not always going to happen the way you want them to happen. It brought up so many questions, but the main question that stayed in my head was if all the decisions that I’ve made are really the right ones. Have you ever done that? Just think back and think “Damn, maybe I fucked up” Looking back on the choices I’ve made thus far I really begin to wonder if maybe all of this will pay off. That’s when I have to call on one of the most amazing people I know, my Momma. The lovely Ms. Geneva Hardy is probably one of my biggest inspirations to keep going and trying new things. I know she worries for me and some of my choices, but that’s what moms do, regardless I’m sure that she’s probably my biggest fan. Since my original interview fell threw I decided to use this chance to ask some questions from the woman that helped me become a lady. Thanks for reading ladies, see you next week!

So Mommy, did you always want to be a mommy?

Yeahh, I always wanted to be a mom and have a family. I wanted four boys, I got four girls, but it’s al good. I’m happy with my girls…some days hahaha.

What was your original dream?

I wanted to be an airline stewardess so I could see the world and meet new people everyday. Only flaw in my plan was that I was scared of heights and scared to fly.

Is this what you thought your life would be like when you were 21?

Heck No. God No.

Do you remember what you were doing on your 21st birthday?

MmmmHmmmm…..do I want to tell my youngest daughter nope nope nope.

Are you happy that things didn’t turn out the way you anticipated at 21?

Yeahh, I kinda sorta am. God has a plan. Not the one I expected but he has a plan. I’ve learned a lot along the way.